One Republic- Infant sorrow- Inside of You
Monday, August 11, 2008
the smart, the ambitious and those who couldn't be bothered.
Monday was the much dreaded ______ screening.
'in and out', the words that kept regurgitating in my head, right from the start of this morning, yet this was not meant to be.
Me foolishly hoping that the series of tests would be short, only to be disappointed in the end.
But going there was certainly an eye opener, a different form of experience that i would never plunge myself into unless left without choice.
Used to the sheltered environment like a halo over the school that comes with spoonfeeding from MJC, this was definitely beyond my wildest dreams.
All came from different walks of life, there was the incredelously smart RJC students, the self-employed workers and the polytechnic soon-to-be graduates, each with their own set of strengths and weaknesses.
There were those, similar to me, just forced to come down here on a school holiday morning, or face the consequences of 12months worth behind bars and a deficit of 16000SGD, with no intention whatsoever to ever make it to this course, yet there were too, the ambitious, attracted by the fringe benefits that came with this course, a certificate, a higher pay compared to others and invaluable experience.
I should have felt ashamed of myself, being shortlisted for such is nothing short of what one would call a prestige, only few even made the cut for the shortlisted, yet i was persistant in turning down this prestige that many could only dream of.
The RJ students, a cut above the others practically breezed through all their tests, while the rest of us struggled to even complete what we were assigned to do, be it physically or mentally demanding tasks, but what really differentiated us from them, were their attitude.
One could easily tell there that the RJ people only lingered around within their own groups, ignoring the rest of us completely, acting like the creme of the crop, not seeing us as their equals.
I found myself hanging around a group of individuals, the self-employed, the older poly-technic graduates and those not from the top 5 Junior Colleges, they were humble yet friendly, what they lacked in terms of IQ to the RJ students, they made up for it in EQ.
And this my friend, would be the edge we have over the Creme of the Crop of students in our batch, that would also be their pitfall despite being gifted intellectually.
Made to undergo tests after tests, what was left of the whole lot of us were nothing but a tired soul dreading to take 30 stops from the MRT station to our home.(never have i travelled so far)
Me? i just prayed they did not select me for this test, hoping that months from now, i'd be taking the ferry to tekong, and not the train to SEMB.
'in and out', the words that kept regurgitating in my head, right from the start of this morning, yet this was not meant to be.
Me foolishly hoping that the series of tests would be short, only to be disappointed in the end.
But going there was certainly an eye opener, a different form of experience that i would never plunge myself into unless left without choice.
Used to the sheltered environment like a halo over the school that comes with spoonfeeding from MJC, this was definitely beyond my wildest dreams.
All came from different walks of life, there was the incredelously smart RJC students, the self-employed workers and the polytechnic soon-to-be graduates, each with their own set of strengths and weaknesses.
There were those, similar to me, just forced to come down here on a school holiday morning, or face the consequences of 12months worth behind bars and a deficit of 16000SGD, with no intention whatsoever to ever make it to this course, yet there were too, the ambitious, attracted by the fringe benefits that came with this course, a certificate, a higher pay compared to others and invaluable experience.
I should have felt ashamed of myself, being shortlisted for such is nothing short of what one would call a prestige, only few even made the cut for the shortlisted, yet i was persistant in turning down this prestige that many could only dream of.
The RJ students, a cut above the others practically breezed through all their tests, while the rest of us struggled to even complete what we were assigned to do, be it physically or mentally demanding tasks, but what really differentiated us from them, were their attitude.
One could easily tell there that the RJ people only lingered around within their own groups, ignoring the rest of us completely, acting like the creme of the crop, not seeing us as their equals.
I found myself hanging around a group of individuals, the self-employed, the older poly-technic graduates and those not from the top 5 Junior Colleges, they were humble yet friendly, what they lacked in terms of IQ to the RJ students, they made up for it in EQ.
And this my friend, would be the edge we have over the Creme of the Crop of students in our batch, that would also be their pitfall despite being gifted intellectually.
Made to undergo tests after tests, what was left of the whole lot of us were nothing but a tired soul dreading to take 30 stops from the MRT station to our home.(never have i travelled so far)
Me? i just prayed they did not select me for this test, hoping that months from now, i'd be taking the ferry to tekong, and not the train to SEMB.
And nic wrote this shit ... at 11:13 PM
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