One Republic- Infant sorrow- Inside of You
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
the perils of life
I wish for life to revert to the way it was, and i really mean it. Things are starting to get complicated for me, yet there's nothing i can really do about it. I find myself not answering to calls and messages to almost all my friends, yet all i want to do right now is to take a walk.
Finding it increasingly hard for me to keep the boundaries visible, my life is.. one huge mess now. I used to think that i could separate personal life from school life, yet i found myself unable to do so, on this very day. My sleep cycle, emotions, behaviour, interpersonal skills are all deteriorating. I found out that, it is indeed difficult to be someone u are not.
Today, Nic lost his temper during H&F basketball impromptu friendly with the ODAC guys, i found that i could not contain the monster within me anymore, and i unleashed it in school. Nic became a fiend for that minute, playing basketball with such rigour and incense, not my usual playing style, for that minute, i felt that i was someone different, couldn't control myself.
Sorry guys (H&F and ODAC guys), I'm not usually like that, the sudden anger wasn't caused by you guys, it was me, i just couldn't contain the pressure built up inside me over time, life kinda sucks for me now, and i just want to lead a normal school life, like the rest.
I wish for all these to be over soon, and i know that you will be seeing this.
Finding it increasingly hard for me to keep the boundaries visible, my life is.. one huge mess now. I used to think that i could separate personal life from school life, yet i found myself unable to do so, on this very day. My sleep cycle, emotions, behaviour, interpersonal skills are all deteriorating. I found out that, it is indeed difficult to be someone u are not.
Today, Nic lost his temper during H&F basketball impromptu friendly with the ODAC guys, i found that i could not contain the monster within me anymore, and i unleashed it in school. Nic became a fiend for that minute, playing basketball with such rigour and incense, not my usual playing style, for that minute, i felt that i was someone different, couldn't control myself.
Sorry guys (H&F and ODAC guys), I'm not usually like that, the sudden anger wasn't caused by you guys, it was me, i just couldn't contain the pressure built up inside me over time, life kinda sucks for me now, and i just want to lead a normal school life, like the rest.
I wish for all these to be over soon, and i know that you will be seeing this.
And nic wrote this shit ... at 10:10 PM
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